Two things I did today that I've been meaning to do
1) Made copies of the footprints they did at the hospital of Jessica, so we can order this memorial.
I'm thinking of ordering one for each of the sets of grandparents and my sister and then maybe getting some ornaments to give away at Christmas. We're going to order the urn part too. Right now she is in a nice wooden box, but I'd like to get something that reminds me more of her when I glance over at her shelf. On her shelf I have all her things: the quilt DH's aunt made her for the shower, hand made sympathy card, a scrapbook that DH mostly put together, the baby figurine that was on my shower cake, the two momento books that the hospital gave us, the outfit we dressed her in when she was born, roses my sister brought to the memorial, a bear figurine from my son's shower so that they are both together, the zebra that was a shower gift that my son loved and wouldn't let go of until after Jessica left us. Then for some reason, he didn't want anything to do with it (very perceptive 2 year old). And I'm guessing things will get added as time passes...
2) I also made copies of of the BBT charts so I can start doing that since AF came and went.
Last night I spent some time reading E.mp.ty Cr.ad.le Broken Heart and really sort of worked on my grieving. It felt a little like homework, but it was good I think. DH is away on business this week so my evenings after my little Chicken goes down are pretty quiet. I think I will find that checklist in the grief resolution helpful--like a map so I don't get lost in it, I guess. It is hard because many of the things on the checklist I feel already, but am questioning that.
On a completely different note: I am proud of the progress I am making to get my body's strength back. I am now within ten pounds of my prepregnancy weight but still 15 away from my goal. I work out between 5-7 days a week and do about 50 minutes of cardio each day. I have also started toning and strengthening through my Pilates Reformer classes twice a week in an effort to really strengthen my tummy muscles so that should I find myself pregnant in the near future, my body will be able to support another pregnancy. After two full term pregnancies in 3 years, I think it is really important I do this. And of course, I am doing my Kegels as per my doctor's request so that I don't pee my pants when I get old.
Alright, off to do more things.
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I am proud of your fitness goals, and achievement, as well! It has taken me a lot longer to bounce back from my last two back to back pregnancies that came within 7 months of each other (the twins, and then Baby Girl).
I have been doing indoor cycling 3 times a week, and walking (a very hilly route) on the other days. I am relieved that I am finally seeing some results! I am now within 12 pounds of my goal!!
Grief work is hard, but I think you sound like you are doing amazing. I know that can have mixed messages from some people, but please know that when I say you are doing amazing I'm not saying that to imply that somehow you are doing better than you should be. It sounds like you are giving your grief time and space, and allowing it to direct you rather than you directing it (which is hard, if not impossible, to do).
I love the footprints memento. I have thought of doing that before too, but never have. I do however have their footprints on our bedroom wall and I look at them everyday.
I think it's wonderful that you've set goals for yourself and are working towards them. I know that I just drifted for months, unable to focus on anything.
The footprints sound really nice. I'm glad you are working out as well. It will give you something to focus on as well as improving your health for a future pregnancy.
Why not try to cover all the possibilities if you can?
Your are beautiful in your grief...and recovering you body.
This is inspiring...I have yet to reach my weight loss goal. Its been too hot to even go outside here!
You go girl!
I love the foot print momento as well, its very beautiful.
Love and Peace
Birdies Mama
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