It seems I have found my tears....
They are for all of the new women who have started blogging about their lost children. My heart aches for them.
I visited each of their blogs and read their birth stories....I can't find the words to leave comments yet, but I am deeply saddened.
If you are reading this, go and visit the babylossdirectory, read the stories, and if you can, leave comments for these women.
It seems that even though I haven't been able to find the tears for my Jessica, she has given me the tears for the others....
p.s.And there's another one not on the directory who lost her baby just a mere week ago here
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This is so often the case for me too. As my heart aches for other women, and their babies, it is as though I finally allow myself to ache for myself and my own.
It breaks my heart. All the stories.
There have been stretches of time when I haven't cried. And then there are those when I cry at a drop of a hat. I seem to be in the latter stretch now.
It is so so sad that the deadbaby land is growing. But it is a good thing that these mamas find their voices and a place to let it out. I know I have needed mine in this last year.
Of course you can link to or mention me. I'm not the type to go to a support group - but sharing online with you women is bound to help. With everyone else I can pretend to be strong and unhurt.
Never in my life have I had tears flow so easily. For myself, my husband, my family, for others who have lost, and of course, for my baby seth.
It broke my heart when I checked the babylossdirectory recently and found all these women. I am struggling to be able to offer any words any more. I just cry. Sometimes I find it too painful to do anything but read and not comment. It's like being back there at the beginning all over again.
I can't believe there are so many of us out here now.
Julia is right though, I'm glad they have found their voices in deadbabyland.
I can see them reaching out through their blogs, and, though, I know my words must sound hollow and facile, I so want to help them in whatever small way I can.
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