I used to be a planner. I LOVED to plan. I planned my whole wedding in about two weeks. I planned all our vacations. Of course that all changed.
It changed when I planned to let my body go into natural labor and birth J.
It changed when I had to birth a deadbaby instead
It changed when I went back to work when I was planning on being a stay at home mom of two
It changed when I planned to get pregnant but then it took longer.
It changed when I had an early miscarriage and was devastated all over again.
It changed when the Clomid didn't work
It changed when I gave up and went back on BC
In short, I now avoid making plans. In fact, the prospect of making long term plans causes me some amount of real anxiety. But....sometimes plans need to be made.
My doctor is allowing me to be induced 10 days before my due date. This happens to be next Thursday. I go in the morning, and then leave with a live baby the next day. At least that is the plan.
We have told the family. And, since it has been confirmed that no children are allowed in the hospital, certain planning had to account for where my son will be and who will be watching him. It is exciting, except, that planning a week away...well, things could still happen.
This morning he wasn't moving. I woke up at 4am, poked and prodded. Nothing. I got up, ate, had some juice, sat and waited; nothing. I finally went back up to bed and fell back asleep thinking, "stupid me, I made plans and I should know better." But then Tash's voice(I think it was Tash but maybe it was Julia) entered in saying "don't believe in jinx, don't believe in jinx". I woke up and he was moving.
Thank God.
And now he is still moving.
I just have to make it one more week. Hang in there baby!
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- I'm here because it seems to be helping. I am mother to a toddler and we lost our beautiful daughter on Mother's Day 2007 because of cord compression . Ironically, the day she died in the womb, May 12, was her "exact" due date(40 weeks). So many things like this I cannot explain. We welcomed our 'rainbow baby' Jan 2010! Email me: amendingheart at gmail dot com
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That was Julia, although I don't believe in them either. Certainly not anymore -- I feel like I know all the boogymen now, and they take a wide corner.
That said, I'm not planning one iota. Even the name discussion is ridiculous and devolves into base humor after about 5 minutes. This has less to do with jinxes and more to do with knowing what I can deal with realistically when I get home -- with a live baby, or without.
Hang tough, not much longer!
Oh God I get it all. I go in next Thursday to pick my induction date a couple of days later. 10 days before my due date is next weekend, so I am a couple of days behind ya, probably cause I have 31 days cycles.
They want me to do up a birth plan, what is important to me and what matters. The irony is I feel like writting "Give me a live baby" at the top and the end.
I had an extensive birth plan with Evan, I fought tooth and nail to not be induced early..then he died.. so ya, screw the planning.
Keeping you in my thoughts and Prayers!!! Sorry to hear that it was confirmed that no children are allowed at the hospital...Praying peace for you these last several days and that this sweet baby will be very active to not cause you any extra stress...
I'm feeling less movement these days too and it freaks me out, a lot, but yes, the voice saying don't believe the jinx is right.
Wow, next Thursday! It's close.
Next Thursday, Next Thursday! Hang in there hun, hang in there baby!
Oh sweetie... Thinking of you. You are doing a great job and you arent jinxing it. I am hoping so much for you and cant wait to hear your news next week... I know it will be great.
I so get it...I hope he keeps kicking you like crazy for the next 7 days, until you have him safely in your arms.
xxoo
One more week to go hon. You can do this and I can't wait to read the post when you do.
You are doing so well and I cannot wait to hear the joyous news. Its so stressful if they have a bit of a quiet period and I have certainly set off an alarm clock near my tummy before.
Hang in there, indeed! Thinking of you.
Waiting to hear some news with crossed fingers!
OMG - how is it that you write my thoughts right around the same time I'm thinking them? 8 )
Congrats on the new addition!
K
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