I feel like at any given moment on any given day, my son will be taken from me too.
And THAT is terrifying.
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- missing_one
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- I'm here because it seems to be helping. I am mother to a toddler and we lost our beautiful daughter on Mother's Day 2007 because of cord compression . Ironically, the day she died in the womb, May 12, was her "exact" due date(40 weeks). So many things like this I cannot explain. We welcomed our 'rainbow baby' Jan 2010! Email me: amendingheart at gmail dot com
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I feel this, retroactively.
((HUGS))
My husband had this feeling for a while. It got better, but not right away.
I had a thing where every night when I went in to check on Monkey before bed my heart would sink until I got used to the silence enough that I could hear her breathing. A therapist explained to me that I was reliving the moment right before the doctor told me that there was no heartbeat. Once he said that, it never happened again-- I go into her room every night to turn off her nightlight and cover her with a blanket, but my heart goes not do gymnastics while I am at it.
Wishing you better days ahead.
I felt this way for awhile. About my living son, and my husband. It got worse a month or two after Nicolas died, when my old dog died too. I became slightly unhinged for awhile. But then i rallied, and it got better. Of course i still fear these things but it is not that huge terrifying feeling.
I don't have a living child, but I feel this way about my husband - when he gets in the car or rides his bike. It isn't happening as often as in the first months, but it's horrible.
I'm thinking of you.
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