For the second night in a row I have not really slept.
For the second night in a row my son spiked at 105 degree temp just before we went to bed.
There is no comfort in praying to God. There is no trust.
Pleading, begging, to keep your child safe.
And then the dark place.
What if something were to happen to him.....
I would lose it.
I am finding that I am still in a somewhat fragile state
Fear, dread...tears - these keep me from sleeping.
THAT voice is a little stronger now....I cannot ignore it.
Not on my watch!!! NOT ON MY WATCH!!!!
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- missing_one
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- I'm here because it seems to be helping. I am mother to a toddler and we lost our beautiful daughter on Mother's Day 2007 because of cord compression . Ironically, the day she died in the womb, May 12, was her "exact" due date(40 weeks). So many things like this I cannot explain. We welcomed our 'rainbow baby' Jan 2010! Email me: amendingheart at gmail dot com
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7 comments:
How scary :( I hope the little guy gets better soon. For what it's worth, he is in my thoughts. Not on all of our watches!
Awwww. I hope he gets better soon. It's awful having to watch them like this. I think it's competely reasonable to fear the worst, when the worst in a different respect has already happened to us. And yes, not on your watch. Absolutely not.
I hope he gets better soon. How scary for you!
god how true is this. i took my son to the ER twice since september, when i used to be pretty confident about kids' resilience. i HATE that i feel paranoid that any little cough means death, but how can i not want to do everything possible to ensure i catch it if it DOES???
fevers scare me. i hope he's better soon.
(PS- i tagged you)
I hope he gets well soon. I am sure it is very scary to be in that position.
oh i am so sorry. i understand that fear all too well. i hope he is better soon
I now check my daughter to see if she is breathing. She is 4 and 1/2. I haven't done it since she was a babe. Oh the worry; that there are no guarantees, that all can be taken, that none of us are spared, it doesn't matter what we have already endured. Life is cruel, can it be any crueler? I hope not. Without my DD I would not be here.
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