Trying....

Today I am trying...
I am trying to start my diet again (low carbs, around 1500 cal), trying to start to clean the house (hasn't been done in weeks..), trying to get into my workout routine (I've been doing 5 days the past two weeks so that's good), trying not to go too crazy because Dh is out of town and (A won't stop chattering away at me constantly, nor did he take a nap), trying to give up my nightly 'night cap' of something (although today I have switched to red wine, isn't that better?), trying not to dwell on the stupidity of family that have announced when they have just gotten a BFP(and thinking to myself, "gee, I hope that all works out for them"), trying not to think too much about the odd visit I just had with my mother, trying to ignore then not so subtle babymaking pressure brought on by my MIL now every time I see her, trying not to obsess about figuring out where I am in my cycle (I have POAS since CD 8 and still not gotten a dark line, now CD 24), and overall trying not to plan too much for the future.

I just keep trying to live, trying to be in the moment, trying to remind myself that every moment should be appreciated.

And so with my laundry half done, half folded, the junk mail half gone through, my daily calorie goal almost obtained (1660 kcal), A in bed, I feel somewhat satisfied.
I just hope maybe tomorrow I'll feel motivated to try just a little harder.

All we can do is try. All we can do is hope that tomorrow maybe we'll get there.