Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Normal..

I am feeling oddly normal these days. Maybe it's just the BC pills regulating my hormones but things feel strangely complete. One dead baby, one live baby, one hubby, one house, one job...maybe it's all I need in life.

In other news SIL is going through with the surrogacy. I found out last night they started the shots. I guess in my naive little world, I thought people became surrogates out of kindness. Now I know it is what people do when they have three kids they can't support in an attempt to get out of the parents' house. Guess you learn new things every day.

4 comments:

Michele said...

Wow... I cant imagine being a surrogate. Not that I ever could be with my history. And for the money... Yeah, I kind of thought it was an "I love you so I will do this to help you" type thing. Two of our friends offered, first when we couldnt seem to get pregnant, then after we lost Alex. It was sweet, but not the route we would take to parenthood. But still sweet, nonetheless.

I cant imagine the bonding you do with the baby only to give them up at the end.

BasilBean said...

When I read that I was thinking "wow" as well. I just can't imagine being a surrogate just for the money. But maybe my view of it is warped due to my experiences/situation.

I am glad you are feeling normal. Hormones really can have a major impact on how we feel, for better or for worse sometimes. I know that clomid made me a crazy mess of emotions, so after not being on it anymore has got to be helping.

hugs to you:)

c. said...

Now that's a stab in the heart if I ever heard one.

You've been so quiet. I've been thinking about you lots. XO.

niobe said...

On the surrogacy: I've been told that, as the economy tanks, agencies are seeing more women seeking to become surrogates. And, at the same time, fewer people with the financial means to hire a surrogate.

Though I'm sure that this is NOT true of most surrogates, I'm sure there are some people out there who are primarily motivated by the money.